There Is a Number of Small Things

b0nk @ 2005-04-02T18:32:00

2005-04-02T23:32:47Z

you are patrick!

which bret easton ellis character are you?
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b0nk @ 2005-03-11T17:47:00

2005-03-11T22:47:29Z

You are Crystal Meth!
You're hard working, sometimes to the point you may
seem neurotic. You have drive, energy, and
motivation will get you ahead; just don't
overdo it. Overuse will catch up to you quick.

What Illegal Drug Are You?
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Raging Bull

2005-01-09T08:39:15Z

"I remember those cheers, they still ring in my ears and for years they remain in my thoughts. 'Cause one night I took of my robe and, what'd I do?, I forgot to where shorts. I recall every fall, every hook, every jab, the worst way a guy can get rid of his flab. As you know my life was a jab, Though I'd rather hear you cheer when I delve into Shakespeare "A horse, A horse. My kingdom for a horse" I haven't had a winner in six months. And though I'm no Olivier, If he fought Sugar Ray he would say it the thing ain't the ring, its the play. So give me a stage, Where this Bull here could rage, And though I could fight I'd much rather recite: That's Entertainment. "

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heh

2005-01-05T19:04:23Z

You're the Tortured Intellectual!
Take What sort of Hipster are you? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>You're sensitive, you're emotional, and you wonder why everyone else in the world exists on a different plane. You cannot eat, breathe, or sleep without analyzing each action to death. You're usually sombre, depressed, lethargic, but you can be nearly glad from time to time. You wear whatever you can find on your cluttered bedroom floor. You carry books, notepads, reading glasses with you wherever you go. You have friends, but only a few who truly get where you're coming from. You frequent coffee shops, libraries, and the less crowded bars. You're obsessed with past people, past ideas, past lives. You wish you could die and be reborn as Jack Kerouac.

from: book of haikus, JK

2004-11-19T05:31:59Z

Jack reads his book
aloud at nite
-the stars come out.

- - -

i gotta make it in terms/ that anyone can understand/
did i tell you about my nightmare?

b0nk @ 2004-11-19T00:13:00

2004-11-19T05:13:31Z

apparently i can post again

b0nk @ 2004-11-19T00:08:00

2004-11-19T05:08:56Z

test

5 am in bed

2004-10-25T08:55:40Z

"insist on yourself; never imitate. your own gift can present every moment with the cumulative force of a whole life's cultivation; but of the adopted talent of another, you have only extemporaneous, half possession."- ralph waldo emerson

this is why i read kerouac:

2004-06-08T06:08:15Z

"I now go out, tired, into my own thoughts and have no place to go but find my road" jack kerouac

blues and haikus...

2004-05-27T01:53:43Z

"Wasn't it like a fire burning in us when He talked to us on the road?"

Solaris

2004-05-22T02:06:40Z

"Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion."
dylan thomas

solaris:
"Earth, even the word sounded strange to me now, unfamiliar. How long had I been gone? How long had i been back? Did it matter? I tried to find the rhythm to the world where I used to live. I followed the current. I was silent, attentive. I made a conscious effort to smie, nod, stand and preform the millions of gesturess that constitute life on Earth. I studied these gestures until they became reflexes again. But I was haunted by the idea that I remembered her wrong. Somehow I was wrong about everything."

I shut my eyes

2004-02-10T02:36:20Z

down from my.. ceiling
drips great noise.
it drips on my head through a hole in the roof.
behind these two hills here..
there's a pool.
And when I'm swimming in
through
a
tunnel....
I shut my eyes.
Inside the cabin I make sounds
In through the tubes I send this noise.
behind these two hills here..
fall asleep.
And when I float in
green
grass
of
tunnel...
It flows back.
down from my.. ceiling
drips great noise.
it drips on my head through a hole in the roof.
behind these two hills here..
there's a pool.
And when I'm swimming in
through
a
tunnel....
I shut my eyes

múm - green grass of tunnel lyrics, icelandic IDM goodness

1969 in the sunshine

2004-01-26T21:51:33Z

im kinda pissed because i had my first class of film and literature today. turns out the school decided to switch it to film and literature of the holocaust. which OK, thats cool, but thats not what i registered for. apparently other people got a phone call letting them know, ofcouse no one phoned me. and i can't really drop it because its a class that meets once a week for 3 hours, and my schedule is so horrible as it is, i dont know if i could get a new class. not to mention the fact that its probably too late to change since schol started on a tuesday and this class meets on monday, we had our first class today. the deadline is usually the first week of classes. grrr bleh always something

links !

2004-01-20T04:53:23Z

Apple's "1984" commercial

human anime?

this is a really cool blog, from this dude Jand. has a lot of links for music/tehnology/science etc..

"talk of the town and you're always so around"

2004-01-02T00:27:47Z

i've come to realize that new years eve has got to be the most overrated holiday. so anyway..

highlight of the day: my dad was with his guitar teacher after a lesson and one of the other guys invited all of them for a drink.. and so the guy (in his 80s) said " yeah i have time for an odi" then laughed and said "i bet none of you know what a wine spodi odi is" well my dad, schooled in kerouac 101 by me - knew lol turns out this guy knew kerouac. he's a famous musician from that time and said kerouac used to follow them all around. i wanna meet this guy - my dad is always relayin to me stories this guy tells, ownage

feels good to be in 2004 with somewhat of a new start. but bleh bleh bleh its all the same. i just hope im not bothered by the typical bullshit i let get to me constantly..

reviving monarchs

2003-12-23T03:58:20Z

i saw "adaptation" today. i remember chaos_evolved saying i would specifically like it, and he was right. i love when people make a statement like that and it follows though lol - spike jonze rules as well, i reccommend the dvd of his work if your a fan. rewatching the movie reveals so many things that make the ending even better, which at first seems odd. it took a drastic turn but ended well, however after rewatching it i appreciate the way the movie goes towards the end. so "stop apologizing for your existence" and see this film -

i went to the library today to see if i could find some interesting books to read over the brake. i usually prefer to buy them, but since i know im getting a bunch of books for Christmas, the library seemed like fun. ofcourse, it sucked, not even 1 kerouac book in stock. although they did, to my surprise, have some chuck pahlahniuk books. maybe all the kerouac stories were taken out, doubt it, i'll pretend thats the reason anyway.

they had a "for sale" rack, and i got "the count of monte cristo" for $.75, and a book on hiking lol.. it was 2 for $1 so i was feeling kinda in a nature/dharma bums inspired mood so i picked it up. its actually pretty cool the kind of trails and shit there are in the US, none really near me. heh

kicks - joy - darkness

2003-12-10T06:09:09Z

lol these were some predictable quizes so i basically got the answers i wanted, but they were fun to take~

Jack Kerouac

Which beatnik are you?
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a beautiful place out in the country

what boards of canada album are you?
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The land between solar systems

2003-12-03T02:12:08Z

Took a trip to NYC today with antinorr for business and pleasure -lol-. Although, in someways there was no pleasure involved since we HAD to go for some shitty class -jk-. I needed to get some shit done at Baruch - transcripts and crap so we went there first. After that we headed over to Generations, then The Met. I really enjoyed the day in spite of the fact it was bittery cold, wtf it was even snowing!

Highlights:

Going to my old coffee stand (best cup of coffee you can ever have and $.50 too)

Getting a beat poster of "On The Road" from Generations

Randomly seeing the new Chris Cunningham DVD and buying it

Nearly getting attacked by some bum who wanted rolling papers " bah bah bleh booooooom"

Seeing Salvador Dali's "Madonna" at The Met (my fav) and a Jackson Pollock original

The guy who started crying on the bus because no one would give him a seat "i bet this bus has YOUR name on it - that's why you won't let me sit- oohhh my feet - (i was standing otherwise i would've gotten up just to shut this guy up - although some hardcore dude told him if he didn't stop he would drag him off the bus by his heels, that seemed to work as well lol)

ah it's been awhile since I took a city trip, felt good. Ofcouse like all good city trips it involved a walk through "the park" - washington sq pk - fun day!

eyes adrift. . .

2003-11-11T05:58:53Z

well no school tomorrow , but i think im getting sick.. grr
and im also losing interest in " visions of cody " , i think i might just read another book and casually read that?

time to pick my classes for next semester.. im thinking, other than the science and gym which i need, im going to pick mostly English and maybe a philosophy course~

overcoming - overwhelming - it's kinda amusing - regret. regret.
--
her smile makes me smile
and my insecurities take over
why can't i just say hello

"Then suddenly everything was just like jazz: it happened in one insane second or so"

2003-11-05T06:12:25Z

today was a good day, for more reasons than one. its times such as these when i realize things are as they should be for a reason. and given enough time, will and faith, anything is possible really. i don't know if that means much to people, or if im really conveying this with the feeling as i see it now, but this is my thought for tonight.

despite a gloomy day defined by clouds and rain, i find myself experiancing what i am looking for.

"maybe not from the sources
you have poured yours
maybe not from the directions
you are staring at"

the mysteries of life

2003-11-02T07:17:24Z

like most good stories, they always end with " ohhh nooo my shirt is on fire"

i bid you a good night~

Stop Making That Big Face-!!!!

2003-10-03T04:07:32Z

Today i had English again.. and it was a pretty interesting class. this class happens to have 3 senior obervers (senior citizens who come to class but dont get credit and don't do hw/tests) so anyway.. big up to Shirley and Roslyn har har.. soo there's this one guy, let's just call him "pulp fiction".. he walks around with a hunchback and usually blurts out incorrect answers or ones that are inappropriate and blatantly rude. for example he decided to point out that Walt Whitman was a homosexual, implying that it somehow affected his writing. whether it did or not wasn't even relevant to the class discussion and our professor was pissed at his comment. so today he gave this half assed comment about kate chopin's "the awakening" that made no sense really, so he tried to save himself by giving away the ending to everyone. this really angered the teacher and she let him know in a sort of angry way - then went on to another student. so this baby goes to the person next to him " ill just keep my mouth shut for the rest of the semester " he then proceeded to fold his hands and closed his book for the remainder of the class.. so much for showing one's age eh? lol the teacher then cut him off and said she was now listening to another kid and that he should sotp talking.. after class she said how she wishes he'd drop the class because of how rude he is . haha anyways i thought this would be amusing to everyone because it added amusement to my day. ncc! wooo

The Sun Also Rises

2003-09-30T03:09:53Z

grrr im updating this from chaos_evolved's house because my home computer is FUCKED (completely ass invaded - watch formula 51)
so yea im pretty pissed. one good thing to come out of this is that i will probably give in and actually get a new computer. i've been holding out on this oldy as long as i can. har har but yea im pretty sure it's time. until then hopefully i will be able to fix this winsock prob :(

until my next post ~ twoism

once this was all black plasma, and imagination

2003-09-22T03:19:00Z

So im back from my trip to PA. It was good to get awya for the weekend, and spend sometime with my family and the good old amish. I was quite surprised, well to be honest i fealt ripped off when i saw two amish roller blading, I didn't think it was allowed. lol b0nk! what next? A horse and buggy with 10'' subs ?

Ah to my delight there were 3 separate outlet bookstores. Prices were extremely cheap and I took advantage of that hardcore.

books bought:
The Complete Short Stories - Earnest Hemingway
To Have And Have Not - Earnest Hemingway
Green Hills of Africa - Earnest Hemingway
The Sun Also Rises - Earnest Hemingway
Atlast Shrugged (hardcover anniversary edition) - Ayn Rand
On The Road (hardcover anniversary edition) - Jack Kerouac (yes i know this is my 3rd copy of the book)
3 Poems - Michael McClure (dolphin skull, rare angel, dark brown)
Dictionary of Classical Mythology
The Workshop: 7 Decades of the Iowa Writer's Workshop
The Writer's Handbook 2003
3 blank journals

ah so i think ill be fine for a while eh? hehe hey i couldnt say no, they were all like $3 or $4 each!
although i still want to read "solaris" by Stanislaw Lem first haha

there are no more barriers to cross

2003-09-20T11:43:21Z

You approach somebody who?s fixing a flat tire on a highway, and you?re a stranger to that
person, and you come up and say, ?Got a flat tire?? The person doesn?t scream at you, ?What?s
it look like?!? He knows that you know he has a flat tire. The content of what you?re saying is
not the communication. It?s a recognition of the person as a gesture, like waving.

/////

i'll be gone for the weekend, and i think it will be good to get away.. hopefully there will be a well stocked bookstore where im going, will be much appreciated. yes-yes!
got a flat tire?